Bohemian Vibes & My Quarter-Life Crisis
Bohemianism is the practice of an unconventional lifestyle, often in the company of like-minded people and with few permanent ties. It involves musical, artistic, literary or spiritual pursuits.
Ever since I was a little girl I've been drawn to the arts. My parents worked full time, so they kept me and my sister busy with an aggressive amount of extra curricular activities. Mondays were for gymnastics, Wednesdays were for violin, we played steel pan on Thursdays, and capped it all off with tap and ballet classes on Saturdays. Everyone that knew me knew that I wanted to be a singer when I grew up. I used to hold impromptu performances for my classmates and write R&B songs with my sister after school. To this day, my sister and I are the most animated people in our respective friend groups, because life is for living to the fullest.
My passion for the arts followed me throughout my academic career. I sang in A capella groups, joined the step team, and started my first blog. In college, when my friends were looking into finance internships, I was busy trying to break into the business side of fashion. There's nothing conventional about me, and yet, I'm starting to feel pretty conventional. Allow me to explain...
Last week I woke up in a panic, which is totally normal as I usually wake up late with little or no time to spare, but this time it was different. I felt overwhelmingly uninspired. Now don't get me wrong, I love my life and I am so grateful for it. I have a great 9-5 job, an amazing community, and a creative outlet that keeps me on my toes - but as great as those things are, I'm still hungry for more. I don't want to live a cookie-cutter life doing the same thing day in and day out. In my gut, I feel like I'm being called to do so much more, but sometimes it feels like the reality of adulthood requires me to have one foot anchored in security while the other dangles over the cliff that is creativity. Will this balancing act be life long?
When I put on this outfit it feels like home. It feels like the playful side of my personality in outfit form. I could live in it forever. Capturing this look has been my favorite shoot to date. I felt so comfortable and free in the smocked top and skirt. The colors against my dark skin made me feel so beautiful and vibrant. It was like the outfit awakened my inner dreamer.